I find that a poetic description of depression, if I were to write a handbook for the non depressed to explain depression to them that would be a good opening line.
IDK, I’m just getting too much into the metaphor and thinking about how masking is like stealing someone else’s cable. Which is what I do. They haven’t caught me yet. I got paid today, got a bunch of treats for myself to enjoy. Probably more than I should have, now that I think about it, the whole shame thing is on me now.
Yet, I’m doing good, regardless. End of a productive week, got paid, looking like a good weekend, I’m focusing on what is good in my life.
Lots still hurts. I’m still struggling, hard. So I do relate, sometimes I get to stand on my own, other days I barely get by and am faking it entirely. Recovery takes time.
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Hi there, welcome.
I find that it helps to try to write it out here.
Yes it does…
I find that a poetic description of depression, if I were to write a handbook for the non depressed to explain depression to them that would be a good opening line.
IDK, I’m just getting too much into the metaphor and thinking about how masking is like stealing someone else’s cable. Which is what I do. They haven’t caught me yet. I got paid today, got a bunch of treats for myself to enjoy. Probably more than I should have, now that I think about it, the whole shame thing is on me now.
Yet, I’m doing good, regardless. End of a productive week, got paid, looking like a good weekend, I’m focusing on what is good in my life.
Lots still hurts. I’m still struggling, hard. So I do relate, sometimes I get to stand on my own, other days I barely get by and am faking it entirely. Recovery takes time.
I can understand but for personal joy whatever it is it means something to you that is so good. Recovery does take time in fact a lot.
How do I feel? That life is shit -_-