When I was tired at the end of the day, I didn’t think much of it. When I stopped reading every day because I couldn’t focus, I brushed it off as a phase. When I stopped doing the laundry for weeks at a time, or missed taking the trash to the curb 3 weeks in a row, I figured I will catch up eventually.
When my new boss got on me for forgetting what I learned in training, when I struggled to remember facts, dates, scriptures, I still didn’t make the connection.
It wasn’t until I came here, that I realized that not only is something wrong, but I am in serious trouble. Only then did I asked myself, “What brought me to this place? What has changed?”
My thyroid medication was reduced. The hopelessness of not being able to function in daily life, the depression, exhaustion, inability to think clearly, were all symptoms of hypothyroidism.
The endocrinologist’s assistant told me that not only would the doctor not increase the dose, but he intended to decrease it further, citing medical concerns regarding my previous dose.
I. Cannot. Function.
He acquiesced to giving me a fast acting, 6 hour thyroid boosting medication to get me through the work day. It’s just a temporary measure. Once it wears off, I am back to my new normal. Though the doctor’s assistant tells me that my body “should adjust…eventually”. Eventually means maybe sometime, maybe never.
It took 2 years for my first endocrinologist to get me to the point of feeling normal and being able to function in life.
My life as I have known it seems to be coming to an end. How long will I be willing and able to suffer these new indignities of life? How long, if ever, will it take my body adjust?
In the words of a wise man:
I had said in my alarm,
“I am cut off from Your sight.”
But You heard the voice of my pleas for mercy
when I cried to You for help.
3 comments
You’re lacking in iodine. If a dr won’t prescribe you thyroid meds, you can take thyroid supplements (you can buy it off amazon). you can also increase your intake of iodine rich foods, like seafood, fish, seaweed, etc.
i have the same thing- low thyroid which leads to fatigue and a whole host of issues. i have all the classic signs of low thyroid. for a whole decade, i kept going to drs and they didn’t do shit. told me my thyroid was fine. i then went to another dr in another state, he prescribed me thyroid meds (i didn’t even ask, he knew what some of my issues were). now i’ve moved and drs here won’t prescribe me thyroid meds either, so i’m basically forced to take natural thyroid supplements and consume more seafood. this is what you have to do if your drs say no.
i know when i’m on thyroid supplements, i do much better.
also, if 1 dr says no, go to another. don’t stick to a dr that refuse to give you what you need.
what was the dose you were taking before?