I’m inching closer to being quarter of a century old, two years shy in fact. Yet I have no accomplishments or major goals in life. Around this time, people would be graduating college and finding employment, but here I am in my state of arrested development, hiding in my room. I had thought I’d be far, far away from home by now. Either that or I wouldn’t make it to see eighteen, but I was too fearful to make either choice. I’ve been waiting around a week for a job to call me back after an interview, but the more time passes the less hopeful I become. I applied to community college again. I’d rather be doing something than nothing. I know I shouldn’t let it get to me because I’m still relatively young but I don’t want to miss out on experiencing things at this stage of life. I already wasted my teenage years, if things keep going the way they are then what would be the point of living?
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You think you’re old? I’m coming up on 38 years old and I’m still trying to escape the god forsaken state my parents moved me to when I was seven. Time makes fools of us all is what I’m saying.
I just, don’t know if I can endorse education anymore, having attained so much of it in my life. I have an associates degree and a bachelors degree and I’m still unemployed. I just had a long discussion with one of the social workers who is trying to keep me from killing myself about how in the modern world I’m functionally useless.
The irony isn’t lost on me, if some sort of apocolypse happened, I’d be worth a lot more because I’m rich in skills, intellect and tools. It’s just in Trump’s America that I’m worthless. Oh well, look after the people I can, fuck the people who can’t appreciate what I have to offer is my attitude.
I’m actually pretty well off, financially speaking, but I miss working for money, I miss helping people and getting paid for it. It’s really stupid, having spent as much time and money on a career as I have, and having so little to show for it.
Well, you know what Bob Dylan said; The times they are a changin’. Except, they aren’t, most of the time things stay the same. Go for your dreams today, don’t wait around for someone to change things for you, no one is coming to save you, I waited for years and no one ever came.
I changed my mind, I did enjoy my time in college and it was worth learning new things because at least I understand the world around me, even if it doesn’t appreciate a damn thing about me. I became a published scientist, again even if that isn’t worth a damn thing in Trump’s America.
I know this will probably sound really fake and superficial considering we haven’t formerly met but I think I appreciate the contributions you have made to the world. I guess employment doesn’t really mean much or define a person’s worth. I also want to move out of my state that I grew up in. Actually- scratch that, I’d like to leave the entire country altogether. Hope you’re doing well friend.
same, i’d like to leave this stupid ass country. but sadly, because of covid and remote working, EVERYWHERE around the globe is now $$$ compared to pre-covid.
I guess employment doesn’t really mean much or define a person’s worth.
>the rich brainwash us to believe that, so they can get us to work ourselves to death for their benefit.
“I changed my mind, I did enjoy my time in college ”
>Dude, if you could be a professional student (ie if colleges were free) you would definitely be one (i suppose myself as well). you LOVE to read and talk history, philosophy, books, movies, etc. 😛
dude- you are young at 23. wait till you get older -_-
also- life doesn’t get better for most ppl, just older and more depressed