Saturday morning I have a, what I think could be, the beginning of what could help me start changing my life, my outlook on life and myself. I am putting in every once of effort I have into that challenge but… if in 120 hours I fail… I’m quiting altogether. If in 120 hours I don’t accomplish what I’ve set out to do… the earth can have my body back and if their is a God… I’ll simply flash Him a wicked smile as He sentences me an eternity in Hell for ending my life early. CXX…
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You’ll do it. If you care this much… than you’ll do it
i do care… but so much is riding on this and it is literally destroying me. it goes beyond having my life on the line.
Why is it your last hope?
starstorm: i can’t really explain it, but this is the last decent thing i can do for myself, this could give me some sense of worth and show others that i do have worth, even if it’s little.
If there is any sentencing, you’ll be doing it to yourself. God does not do that. Whatever you have lined up, expect it to change your life for the positive….expect it, as though you already are in a better place.
I don’t want you to go, but if it is what you want then I hope that everything works out for the best. It sounds like either way would work but good luck!