So my mother chooses to ignore the fact that i have depression, she tries to ignore the fact that i used to cut myself, and ever since i stopped (for her sake, not mine) my life has become harder.
We are moving to a rental house until our new house is built. And i asked her if my boyfriend (The only person that still helps me through life and supports me through everyday) would be able to come live with us, since we’d be moving more than an hour away. This would be the only way we could rent since the rent split four ways is better than three.
But she blatantly refused me. I mean i understand i sound like a pissy little teenager, but without his help i am sure to slip into the same depression i used to have. And i will start cutting again. I’ve wanted to for ages and if we move without my boyfriend, with no support i am sure to hurt myself quite alot.
I just don’t understand why i can’t have a compromise. We’ve been together for three years so it’s not like it’s a stupid request.
She would rather go to different peoples houses living on favors, then let us live together.
I feel so trapped in this situation.
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wow …you really are in a pickle aren’t you?…..truth is best to become SELF reliant….you are the only one you can count on….does this piss you off for some reason….i know it does me sometimes….but the way you are going….someone else has your power…owns your happiness…convenient…but not ever reliable….better start building your own safety net….just in case….you are experiencing your reality through someone else’s reality….IMO….felt like you once….just saying….sucks if your safe place to fall isn’t available and you have no skills of your own….
in the end it’s all good…..but how do you love another so much….in spite of not loving yourself?……curious….can you put words to those feelings of helplessness? just wondering
not to worry
Peace