I didn’t even get to see my own father for Christmas this year. And not because he was in jail this time but because he’d rather spend it with his girlfriend and probably with her kids. I’m so pissed off because of this. We aren’t close but I like seeing him even if we don’t say much or do much together. It’s always just nice to get to see him since I only get to a few times a year. I guess at least I get to, right? I’m just hurt and feel like he didn’t want to spend time with me. That’s why I’m so angry and upset. I should tell him but there’s no way in hell that’ll happen. I just don’t know how to. I know that might not make sense to some but we never talk to each other about anything except for school, friends, what I want for my birthday or for Christmas, or what movie I want to watch. We make small talk. That’s it. What also makes me even more upset is that I just got out of an adolescent psychiatric hospital 2 weeks ago. And all I got was one short phone call from him while I was in there. And I was suppose to see him in November, which I do every year, but I didn’t get to for some reason. But what can I do? It is what it is. Well I just wanted to get all this off my chest and move on with life. Cheers!
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Hey Cheerio,
Well said…. unfortunately also ‘the older generation’ arent always good or equipped in dealing with people and their issue’s, even if family. It’s as you say, it is what it is.
The trick for you is to stay positive even when things or people aren’t around you. Don’t let negativity shake you up or influence you.
Try focus on others sometimes too and their issues as it helps in bonding also, but also address your thoughts as they are what most influence you, not others.
Keep your spirits and thoughts positive, even in the face of adversity mate and all the best. Always happy to chat if needed.
Take Care
A..
Hey adastra,
I really like that you said to focus on other people. I have a hard time with that. I’m always in my own head noticing what I’m going through and not others. I have been working on it and I’ve made little progress, but you reminded me to make an effort, since I had kind of forgotten that I had made a conscious decision to think about others. Have a happy new year. I wish you well 🙂 -Cheerio