Im having mixed emotions on if i want to die.or not i mean my head is telling me that i need to but my heart is telling me to keep fighting but im tired ive fought all that i can.fight i just dont know what to do
that is so normal drift. I don’t wanna die but I need to. I really just wanna live without the pain and the only way I know to end the pain is to end myself. But I don’t wanna do it. Where oh where is the answer???
drift_along, your life is in your heart, take it from there. There is always – always – one part of us that says no to death, and that’s the part of ourselves we must draw courage from.
i have kept a journal. in it i wrote down everytime i wanted suicide. i also wrote the good times. i just read back on it, and multiple times i wrote that i was so happy i decided to try to last out another day. some of the best days of my life were right after the worst. while in the middle of the depressed emotions, i couldn’t see the big picture. i guess what im saying is humans (at least my) emotions and desires change a lot and quickly. The mind and heart can tricked into thinking and wanting something you really don’t want. hold fast, help is on the way!
Since your heart is telling you to fight that means you still want to.
I’d suggest to keep fighting as long as you have doubts.
And maybe your heart will eventually be stronger than your mind and keep you going without any more doubts.
Take it from someone who no longer cares at all about living.
And is only here now to avenge myself on some people and to do a lot of crazy unsafe things right before I expire.
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that is so normal drift. I don’t wanna die but I need to. I really just wanna live without the pain and the only way I know to end the pain is to end myself. But I don’t wanna do it. Where oh where is the answer???
drift_along, your life is in your heart, take it from there. There is always – always – one part of us that says no to death, and that’s the part of ourselves we must draw courage from.
Oh dear… It sounds like you’re thinking too much… Can be a dangerous thing
i have kept a journal. in it i wrote down everytime i wanted suicide. i also wrote the good times. i just read back on it, and multiple times i wrote that i was so happy i decided to try to last out another day. some of the best days of my life were right after the worst. while in the middle of the depressed emotions, i couldn’t see the big picture. i guess what im saying is humans (at least my) emotions and desires change a lot and quickly. The mind and heart can tricked into thinking and wanting something you really don’t want. hold fast, help is on the way!
okay, i know that you do get these mixed signals, and i usually just try my hardest to block out the bad ones…
@ 8th grade…are you in eighth grade?
Since your heart is telling you to fight that means you still want to.
I’d suggest to keep fighting as long as you have doubts.
And maybe your heart will eventually be stronger than your mind and keep you going without any more doubts.
Take it from someone who no longer cares at all about living.
And is only here now to avenge myself on some people and to do a lot of crazy unsafe things right before I expire.