I just want people to be honest with me. I want somebody to come up to me and say “Hey listen…there’s nothing you can do. You are going to have to deal with your depression for the rest of your life. You can’t get rid of it. It will come and go as it pleases.”
I’m just tired of false hope and all the BS people keep telling me. Like you should have hope and you have a purpose and things will get better when you are going to college. Why would college do such a thing? I’m socially awkward and I hate having a lot of time to kill. Yeah college will be fantastic.
No that’s not how it works. I have been depressed since elementary school and ever since then it’s all I’ve known. So why would college cure me of being depressed? Just doesn’t make sense.
My school counselor doesn’t have a clue what to tell me anymore. I was talking with her today and I can tell that she’s lost and doesn’t know how to help. I just want her to be straight up with me and tell me there’s nothing she can do.
Everything is making me so tired and drained. I’m sick of everything anymore. I don’t know how to bring back the old me who was determined and motivated to try. To try and to go on with life.
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I’m bipolar (: talk about shitty depression. BAck and forth… Now I’m on meds tho. They help, you should try them. I liked college because you could be whoever you wanted to be. You really have free reign over yourself and your time. You find who your friends are. It’s like a fresh start. Highschool is just a joke.. College is where everyone grows up.
welcome to my life..i have been bullied for 7 years though and im finally graduating this year
I think our high school experiences were pretty damn similar. I graduated from high school last year… barely.
I also despise hearing those repetitive reassurances… “It will get better soon.”, “You can beat this.” They mean nothing to me. In fact whenever I hear someone tell me something like that, I get angry, because I feel like they are blatently lying to my face.
I don’t know what else to say other than that you can email me anytime… to talk about the horrors of high school (or anything really).
amahaffey444 @ gmail dot com
Okay, here it is: given your history, it’s likely you will have to deal with your depression the rest of your life.
Having said that, if your depression is due in part to environmental factors such as nutrition, sunlight, exercise, etc, there are things you can do to improve it enough to live a decent life. I mention this only because you are in high school, so maybe you haven’t considered this yet. It was only last year that I figured out how my environment affects me, and I’m in my late 20s.
My adult life has been better than high school was, but I am still depressed, and still socially awkward. I can be only slightly depressed or I can be quite suicidal, but I am never completely free of my depression. It’s at its worst in the winter — maybe yours is the same, and if that’s the case, you might get your motivated self back with the longer days, and maybe you will want to keep trying.
You wanted someone to tell you like it is, so here it goes. read carefully.. BuRrRrRrPpP . when you turn 21, you’ll be able to buy Bourbon so stick around for awhile .
Maybe try another councillor sounds like she doesntGET you…