I’m losing my mind. I want to be alone. My thoughts are evil and they scare me. I can’t sleep…..when I do I dream and the dreams scare me because when I wake up sometimes I’m convinced they happened….
I feel like I’m living two lives sometimes. I don’t get it it’s confusing. I feel guilty and selish for wishing to be done. Then feel trapped and sick.
Why can’t I just feel normal?
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You’re like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.
I feel like I have felt that exact way before. It’s like I have a split personality. One side is “good”, the other, “bad”.
My only advice is to try as hard to listen to the good, and prove the bad side wrong. Don’t ignore it, but be challenged by it. Eventually, it will go away and you will be a stronger person from it.
It bogs me down when I feel like this, you know?
Just depressed.
I tried to talk to my roommate about it but she didn’t listen and somehow turned the conversation into it being about her. I mean I know it’s not her problem but I just wanted her to listen
I understand a little too. I know what it feels like to always have a stronger dark side, but Liz is right by living even though you don’t want to you are proving it and yourself wrong. Believe in your good side. Believe you can be like the good side and overcome your dark side. Believe in yourself and the positive things you can bring to the world even if they seem small to you. I know you have good traits for being honest like this I can see and feel it in you. Just believe in them and you! I know that’s hard, believe me, but it’s true. It will help you become stronger.
I know you guys are right, and I do try very hard to keep the unfavorable side at bay. I hate having these feelings. I usually just keep them all inside and don’t talk about them for fear of being told I’m crazy. I know it’s not healthy…..
I had an interview today, I hope my bad side didn’t show