Yes. I saw that jackie watched a video about losing her virginity on youtube, and subscribed to that account. Which leads me to assume that she probably lost her virginity to her boyfriend. I feel destroyed.
Jackie is a girl you love,right? i’m really sorry. breakups are really tough. but don’t give up on your life,okay? i know it feels like your heart is breaking,but there will be another girl someday. and aside from relationships,there is so much more to life. give it time-time heals everything. you’ll be okay,i promise.
She is a girl i love very much. But I never dated her.
I’m going to make another post tomorrow, and let all of you know what’s going on before I do it. Assuming I still feel the need to do it tomorrow afternoon.
i dated one of my friends off and on for a couple years,i finally had to move away and it was really tough. i hate that feeling of heartbreak.it’s the worst.:( but it will fade,and even though it hurts-please-it’s not worth your life. things will get better.i hope you do post tomorrow. we all care about you,i hope we can help you get through this. please don’t end your life!
It’s not just heartbreak. She completely abandoned me a month ago. And before that, things were massively stressful for both of us ever since january of 2011. And the reason things were stressful was because she chose not to fix things. She just cared about her boyfriend. I can’t accept that. I need her as a friend, or I’m dead.
when i moved away,losing my friends was just as bad as the breakup was. i think that is still a form of heartbreak-losing a friend is horrible. but you have to know your own worth by yourself. does that make sense? you are worthy of happiness and all the good things life has to offer,and i hope that you don’t give up because she is gone. there is more to all of us than just one other person. do you have family? other friends? lean on them for support-they love you and need you in their lives. promise you’ll post tomorrow? i think it’s about getting through each day. slowly the pain will get to be less and less.you’ll realize you do have the strength inside to do this on your own,and then you’ll be able to love friends and a future girlfriend,but you will be your own person. you can do this,i know you can.
I’ve stuck through it all for a long time. It just never ends. I can make it end tomorrow. I’ve already made the irrational decision of “if i can’t have jackie, i give up”. She’s either in my life, or I don’t want to live anymore.
i’m sorry you are in so much pain.:( i can’t change your mind-i know that. but i really hope that you don’t go through with it. your life matters.we care about you here.i hope you will post tomorrow,i’ll check back and see. i’ll be sad if you don’t.:(
Come on buddy, man up and forget this chick. You’re not a bad looking guy I saw the picture you posted the other day. Find someone who you can actually spend time with, not some girl you can only talk to on Skype. I know you want the pain to end, but you’re keeping it going by paying attention to what she’s doing online, following her on YouTube, etc. Guess what, Jackie didn’t do anything to hurt you, she didn’t send you an email or call you and tell you that she was about to have sex with her boyfriend, you brought this pain on yourself by deciding to look up what she’s doing online. I’ve been there before, when a girl breaks up with me and you still look at Facebook or whatever and find out they are dating someone else, but it only hurts until you stop looking. You wouldn’t be thinking about ending your life if you hadn’t been snooping around online. You gotta try to get over this, she is not worth it, you guys were phonecall and Skype buddies, she found herself a boyfriend in real life a long time ago, and you expected her to care more about the relationship she had with you. You weren’t even dating. There are people on this planet who are in long term committed relationships and they get cheated on and all other sorts of horrible things, but they eventually heal and keep on going. Ask yourself why do you want to be friends with someone who treated you like this in the first place? You want to be friends with someone who one day just decides to cut you out of her life completely? She couldn’t even be mature enough to just send you an email and say hey I’m getting serious with my boyfriend can we please just be friends I don’t want to lose you. Instead she was really immature and just cut you out of her life and she doesn’t even care how you feel about it or how much pain you are in. Does that sound like a good friend? Obviously she’s not that great of a person if she can treat someone like that after being close friends for a few years. And don’t try to twist the truth around in your mind, don’t try to think that it’s her boyfriend or her family or the police stopping her from talking to you. If she really wanted to, it would not be that hard to send you a message somehow. There is no doubt in my mind about that. She is choosing to ignore you herself. Nobody else is controlling her. You should be mad at this chick, not wishing you were still best buddies. When someone cuts you out of their life, part of the healing process is to get mad. You have to get over the lovey-dovey feelings and realize this girl treated you like dirt, and get mad about it and be happy that someone so cruel is not in your life anymore. Why kill yourself? There’s a woman out there for you who is going to love you and want to spend time with you and get married and have a family. It isn’t going to be Jackie. She was just a friend. It took me a long time to stop being a wimp about my ex girlfriend too. Now she’s already with someone else and I’m finally realizing she isn’t even worth missing if she doesn’t miss me. Do you have any musicians or athletes you look up to? Be like them, be a man, find a better chick, people are getting dumped and divorced and cheated on every single day in this world because people are hurtful and selfish, but those of us who actually have a heart just have to keep going. You’re obviously a really loyal and caring person, you talked to this girl every day and you were there for her, you’re going to find a girl who will appreciate that and not leave you. And even if that doesn’t happen for a while, life is not only about relationships. In this whole wide world there are a billion other interesting things you can do besides needing someone to be in love with right this minute. You have to learn to love yourself first. Girls don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t care about themselves, girls don’t want to be responsible for your entire happiness and reason to live, it puts too much pressure on them and it makes you look needy. I’ve been terrible at this in many of my relationships, I stop talking to my other friends, I stop working out, all because I put my entire focus on having someone to love me. And then when they decide to leave, I have to start all over because I let everything else fall apart. I’m trying really hard to learn from my mistakes too. It’s not easy. I thought I was going to marry my last girlfriend. Imagine how bad I’ve been feeling. You didn’t even get to have a real relationship with Jackie. I was with my girlfriend for close to 2 years and it was so amazing and I really thought I found my soul mate and I was never going to need to date someone else again. Now my “soul mate” is busy cooking dinner for someone else and sleeping in their bed together. Every day for me is a struggle too and I just try to keep going. I got dumped way back before Thanksgiving and I’m just now starting to feel a little bit better and throwing away the things that remind me of her. Trust me though, stop looking around to see what she is doing online or you will keep getting hurt like this. Keep fighting along with me, won’t you? Don’t quit man. I have to wake up tomorrow in the bed where my girlfriend used to sleep next to me, and I have to find a reason to even get out of bed and keep going. Don’t give up, I don’t want to be the only one still fighting to stay alive. Just rent a video game or some movies for the weekend, watch Friday night TV, go for a walk, anything, just stop thinking about Jackie for a while. I hope you’ll post tomorrow and I hope you’ll say that you’re feeling better.
She wasn’t just some girl I talked to on skype. Me and her had planned to meet and everything. She promised me that one day we would definitely see each other. She promised me that she would never leave me. She promised me that she was definitely going to fix our friendship back to how it was in 2010, when things were good between us. She broke all of those promises last month by abandoning me and reporting me to the police, as if I were just some freak internet predator. I’m not really capable of choosing whether or not to see what she does online. She blocked me on facebook, so I can’t see what she does on there. And I know that it was me that brought this on myself. Me and her didn’t have to be dating for us to have a deep and meaningful relationship. And just because she’s dating someone, doesn’t mean that guy goes to the top of her priorities.
Being in love with a girl isn’t the issue. This isn’t a boyfriend girlfriend break up issue. This is about losing my best friend. It’s not a break up. Me and Jackie shared a deep relationship for 3 years, we never dated, but that doesn’t make it less meaningful. I did have a real relationship with Jackie, it just wasn’t in person. I find it deeply offensive when people claim that because it was an internet relationship, it didn’t mean that much or that it wasn’t that big of a deal. But it was a big deal. It was hugely important. It meant the world to me. She was my only friend. The fact that it was exclusively online doesn’t detract from it in the slightest.
And I will post this afternoon. I will let you all know of my decision. Thank you all for responding. I was actually surprised by how long your response was ThousandCuts. I’m engulfed in emotions right now, so while I can see and understand your logic, it’s practically impossible to fight my own emotions.
If you’re scared (and you should be – death isn’t easy) then why the rush?
I don’t think it’s really worth it. We have spoken extensively about this girl, and I have yet to hear anything about her or what made her so special. You can have another friendship or relationship, you don’t miss your one and only shot at 19.
So you should at least have a fun last day and do some nice things… if you can… have a nice meal, go to the beach, shopping, walk in the park, whatever. Then maybe that way, you can get through one more day, and one more.
Report back tomororow.
Well, it’s been a year since these posts. I’m wondering how you are. If you are still alive. I hope so. I have been through many relationships, and I know how difficult they are. There are billions of people on the planet, some very lonely. So it isn’t difficult to let go of the pain and try to find someone else. I hope you did.
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do you mean you are going to kill yourself? please please don’t!! talk to us,what’s going on? maybe we can help.we’re here for you.
Yes. I saw that jackie watched a video about losing her virginity on youtube, and subscribed to that account. Which leads me to assume that she probably lost her virginity to her boyfriend. I feel destroyed.
Jackie is a girl you love,right? i’m really sorry. breakups are really tough. but don’t give up on your life,okay? i know it feels like your heart is breaking,but there will be another girl someday. and aside from relationships,there is so much more to life. give it time-time heals everything. you’ll be okay,i promise.
She is a girl i love very much. But I never dated her.
I’m going to make another post tomorrow, and let all of you know what’s going on before I do it. Assuming I still feel the need to do it tomorrow afternoon.
i dated one of my friends off and on for a couple years,i finally had to move away and it was really tough. i hate that feeling of heartbreak.it’s the worst.:( but it will fade,and even though it hurts-please-it’s not worth your life. things will get better.i hope you do post tomorrow. we all care about you,i hope we can help you get through this. please don’t end your life!
It’s not just heartbreak. She completely abandoned me a month ago. And before that, things were massively stressful for both of us ever since january of 2011. And the reason things were stressful was because she chose not to fix things. She just cared about her boyfriend. I can’t accept that. I need her as a friend, or I’m dead.
when i moved away,losing my friends was just as bad as the breakup was. i think that is still a form of heartbreak-losing a friend is horrible. but you have to know your own worth by yourself. does that make sense? you are worthy of happiness and all the good things life has to offer,and i hope that you don’t give up because she is gone. there is more to all of us than just one other person. do you have family? other friends? lean on them for support-they love you and need you in their lives. promise you’ll post tomorrow? i think it’s about getting through each day. slowly the pain will get to be less and less.you’ll realize you do have the strength inside to do this on your own,and then you’ll be able to love friends and a future girlfriend,but you will be your own person. you can do this,i know you can.
I’ve stuck through it all for a long time. It just never ends. I can make it end tomorrow. I’ve already made the irrational decision of “if i can’t have jackie, i give up”. She’s either in my life, or I don’t want to live anymore.
i’m sorry you are in so much pain.:( i can’t change your mind-i know that. but i really hope that you don’t go through with it. your life matters.we care about you here.i hope you will post tomorrow,i’ll check back and see. i’ll be sad if you don’t.:(
Come on buddy, man up and forget this chick. You’re not a bad looking guy I saw the picture you posted the other day. Find someone who you can actually spend time with, not some girl you can only talk to on Skype. I know you want the pain to end, but you’re keeping it going by paying attention to what she’s doing online, following her on YouTube, etc. Guess what, Jackie didn’t do anything to hurt you, she didn’t send you an email or call you and tell you that she was about to have sex with her boyfriend, you brought this pain on yourself by deciding to look up what she’s doing online. I’ve been there before, when a girl breaks up with me and you still look at Facebook or whatever and find out they are dating someone else, but it only hurts until you stop looking. You wouldn’t be thinking about ending your life if you hadn’t been snooping around online. You gotta try to get over this, she is not worth it, you guys were phonecall and Skype buddies, she found herself a boyfriend in real life a long time ago, and you expected her to care more about the relationship she had with you. You weren’t even dating. There are people on this planet who are in long term committed relationships and they get cheated on and all other sorts of horrible things, but they eventually heal and keep on going. Ask yourself why do you want to be friends with someone who treated you like this in the first place? You want to be friends with someone who one day just decides to cut you out of her life completely? She couldn’t even be mature enough to just send you an email and say hey I’m getting serious with my boyfriend can we please just be friends I don’t want to lose you. Instead she was really immature and just cut you out of her life and she doesn’t even care how you feel about it or how much pain you are in. Does that sound like a good friend? Obviously she’s not that great of a person if she can treat someone like that after being close friends for a few years. And don’t try to twist the truth around in your mind, don’t try to think that it’s her boyfriend or her family or the police stopping her from talking to you. If she really wanted to, it would not be that hard to send you a message somehow. There is no doubt in my mind about that. She is choosing to ignore you herself. Nobody else is controlling her. You should be mad at this chick, not wishing you were still best buddies. When someone cuts you out of their life, part of the healing process is to get mad. You have to get over the lovey-dovey feelings and realize this girl treated you like dirt, and get mad about it and be happy that someone so cruel is not in your life anymore. Why kill yourself? There’s a woman out there for you who is going to love you and want to spend time with you and get married and have a family. It isn’t going to be Jackie. She was just a friend. It took me a long time to stop being a wimp about my ex girlfriend too. Now she’s already with someone else and I’m finally realizing she isn’t even worth missing if she doesn’t miss me. Do you have any musicians or athletes you look up to? Be like them, be a man, find a better chick, people are getting dumped and divorced and cheated on every single day in this world because people are hurtful and selfish, but those of us who actually have a heart just have to keep going. You’re obviously a really loyal and caring person, you talked to this girl every day and you were there for her, you’re going to find a girl who will appreciate that and not leave you. And even if that doesn’t happen for a while, life is not only about relationships. In this whole wide world there are a billion other interesting things you can do besides needing someone to be in love with right this minute. You have to learn to love yourself first. Girls don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t care about themselves, girls don’t want to be responsible for your entire happiness and reason to live, it puts too much pressure on them and it makes you look needy. I’ve been terrible at this in many of my relationships, I stop talking to my other friends, I stop working out, all because I put my entire focus on having someone to love me. And then when they decide to leave, I have to start all over because I let everything else fall apart. I’m trying really hard to learn from my mistakes too. It’s not easy. I thought I was going to marry my last girlfriend. Imagine how bad I’ve been feeling. You didn’t even get to have a real relationship with Jackie. I was with my girlfriend for close to 2 years and it was so amazing and I really thought I found my soul mate and I was never going to need to date someone else again. Now my “soul mate” is busy cooking dinner for someone else and sleeping in their bed together. Every day for me is a struggle too and I just try to keep going. I got dumped way back before Thanksgiving and I’m just now starting to feel a little bit better and throwing away the things that remind me of her. Trust me though, stop looking around to see what she is doing online or you will keep getting hurt like this. Keep fighting along with me, won’t you? Don’t quit man. I have to wake up tomorrow in the bed where my girlfriend used to sleep next to me, and I have to find a reason to even get out of bed and keep going. Don’t give up, I don’t want to be the only one still fighting to stay alive. Just rent a video game or some movies for the weekend, watch Friday night TV, go for a walk, anything, just stop thinking about Jackie for a while. I hope you’ll post tomorrow and I hope you’ll say that you’re feeling better.
She wasn’t just some girl I talked to on skype. Me and her had planned to meet and everything. She promised me that one day we would definitely see each other. She promised me that she would never leave me. She promised me that she was definitely going to fix our friendship back to how it was in 2010, when things were good between us. She broke all of those promises last month by abandoning me and reporting me to the police, as if I were just some freak internet predator. I’m not really capable of choosing whether or not to see what she does online. She blocked me on facebook, so I can’t see what she does on there. And I know that it was me that brought this on myself. Me and her didn’t have to be dating for us to have a deep and meaningful relationship. And just because she’s dating someone, doesn’t mean that guy goes to the top of her priorities.
Being in love with a girl isn’t the issue. This isn’t a boyfriend girlfriend break up issue. This is about losing my best friend. It’s not a break up. Me and Jackie shared a deep relationship for 3 years, we never dated, but that doesn’t make it less meaningful. I did have a real relationship with Jackie, it just wasn’t in person. I find it deeply offensive when people claim that because it was an internet relationship, it didn’t mean that much or that it wasn’t that big of a deal. But it was a big deal. It was hugely important. It meant the world to me. She was my only friend. The fact that it was exclusively online doesn’t detract from it in the slightest.
And I will post this afternoon. I will let you all know of my decision. Thank you all for responding. I was actually surprised by how long your response was ThousandCuts. I’m engulfed in emotions right now, so while I can see and understand your logic, it’s practically impossible to fight my own emotions.
If you’re scared (and you should be – death isn’t easy) then why the rush?
I don’t think it’s really worth it. We have spoken extensively about this girl, and I have yet to hear anything about her or what made her so special. You can have another friendship or relationship, you don’t miss your one and only shot at 19.
So you should at least have a fun last day and do some nice things… if you can… have a nice meal, go to the beach, shopping, walk in the park, whatever. Then maybe that way, you can get through one more day, and one more.
Report back tomororow.
Well, it’s been a year since these posts. I’m wondering how you are. If you are still alive. I hope so. I have been through many relationships, and I know how difficult they are. There are billions of people on the planet, some very lonely. So it isn’t difficult to let go of the pain and try to find someone else. I hope you did.