So no matter what happens, who I’m with, what they say or anything at all…I always feel alone and unwanted. the tiniest comment, even a look and I think I should leave and go back to just living in my head..sometimes it feel like I want to crawl into those thoughts again like a small child crawling into and cuddling close inside their favourite blanket and no matter what happens, I ALWAYS want to be there…even when I’m happy. for however short it lasts.
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Know what you mean…-sigh- sorry, no real advice – just thought I’d show you’re not alone…
i really appreciate that. would you maybe want to talk for a bit?
Mhm, ‘course.
If you want to email mine is: tickin(dot)will(at)gmail(dot)com
I live in my head a lot, maybe you are on the autistic spectrum? Maybe that is a normal way of thinking and you should embrace that (only positive thoughts, though)? Stop trying to fit into the world of what’s considered normal, and be happy to be you. If you are not autistic, and crawling into your mind is a defense mechinism, maybe you have low self esteem and should really work on seeing all the positive traits you do possess. Right now I can tell from your messages that you seem a)intelligent, b)articulate, c)well mannered, d) thoughtful. Those are 4 positive traits right there. I am sure you have even more positive traits and talents…. why do you think people are looking at you bad or thinking bad things about?… I know it is all in your head! You can tell them how you feel, and they will try to do a better job at communicating with you without hurting your feelings. Find other’s like you (if the people you hang out with are rude) and be friends with only sensitive, polite people that would never try to hurt your feelings intentionally. And really KNOW YOUR WORTH!