i just want to die, i have at this precise moment in time nothing to live for. nothing…. no-one. i am crying so  much, it hurts so much, living shouldnt have to be like this…. it just hurts so much, if i could say farewell now i would, but i cant not yet
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Actually in this precise moment you have everything.
It’s the pain from all the past and dread of the future that cause us pain.
But this precise moment is all any of us ever have, there is actually nothing else.
Think about it, memories are not real and worries are not real.
The more we learn to accept just this present moment, the more peaceful we will become.
Om shanti
Thanks Guardian, as much as you are trying to inspire me at this present moment in time i wouldnt even “awwwww” at a puppy, but dont worry, i will live to fight another day
Good for you, be good to yourself, your obvious wisdom has much in store for the rest of the world.
Om shanti
@the Guardian:
your post reminded me of an article I read a while ago ..
the name of the article is: the now is boring says the mind
I am finding it so hard at this moment in time. I am wise beyond my years, it is truef… I am
The mind hates the now.
You see YOU are not your mind.
You are a being.
Your mind is a tool you use to get stuff done.
It thinks for you.
But the thinking sounds like your voice talking to you so your mind tricks you into thinking it is you.
Can you turn the tool off?
Can you stop your mind, stop thinking?
I have schizophrenia, so at this precise moment in time i cannot turn him off. I went out tonight with friends and ended up in the club alone with no friends, made my own way home
Hey crimson,
It is good that your fighting another day. I am having trouble doing that because all I do at night is think, “Will I wake up or will this be my last day?” Friends are hard to come by and hard to hold onto. If you ever need someone you got us here ok.
Alex