I wanted to say thank’s to all of the people who reached out to me , and cared soo much … i even smiled  ,A LITTLE BIT , but , i dont know … today i cut myself again … i know it’s wrong … but , i cant help it . I was called a slut today , by my friends mom ! Her mom just called me and told me that i’m a slut . I dont know why , but , i just , honostly , i’ve been crying for 3 hours now ? My hear just  , beats fast , i get shiwers… today , i caused a car accident … I was crossing the road , and i just stopped , and a blue car , didn’t stop in the right time , then it turned left , and pumped in to a tree … i ran away , crying . I dont know what came over me . ! I think i just made up my mind , i dont want to live anymore ….
And my class boys , they threw a CHAIR at me , litterally , a chair …  It hurt , i was bleeding from my head a little bit , but , i was happy  , now i know how much people hate me . (Y)
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Don’t be so worried about the cutting. Yes it is better not to cut but if you hold it all in its much worse. Just try and find some other way to let it all out. People are bitches. The mom probably sleeps around and needs someone to vent on. Boys are creepy, horrible things (some of them) and don’t realize how stupid they seem. Take the hate that comes towards you and deflect it. Go and do something you want to do and forget about your problems for a little bit. Fierce Love 🙂
I told the boy i liked about the cutting , he didn’t care …. he sayd im the one who is um , makeing myself uglyier ? i think , ( i know my english is sooobaaad ) and well , i dont know , i guess he’s right , but i can’t do anything , if go out for a run , or just leave home without saying where , or with whom am i goint out with , my mom thinks it’s weird ,and thinks im going smokeing or drinking …. so i cant do anything what seeems ” weird”
Hey, sweetie, there are ways to get our of your situation, people do care about you, you posted a picture, and you are beautiful, so guys like me probably are hiding when you are around, we are too scared of our secrets getting out too, and we dont want to hurt you, but you sound like a genuinely kind person, and if you told the guy you liked that you were cutting yourself because of the pain you were feeling and he did nothing, you should not just move on, but kick him in the balls, it is extremely painful, but anyone who has that much disregard for human life should be delt with, just make sure that he understood, cause us guys are really stupid, and we have to be told exactly whats going on in order for us to even get close to trying to understand.
What a *****. What kind of a thing is that to do. Your not and ignore her.