Everytime I have sex or sexual contact with people all I feel is shame afterwards but at the same time I don’t regret it. The only reason I feel ashamed is the thought of what my parents and family would think, It’s like they don’t know me, they don’t know who I am. I think if they knew about all the things ive done and I don’t just mean anything sexual, but bad things that ive done I think they would disown me.
One time on my 16th birthday my grandad rang me and was like ’16 and never been kissed’ and I was thinking HA! if only you knew. Everyone thinks im innocent and I find it hard to look at my parents especially my dad, he would be so ashamed. Ive never had a boyfriend I just sleep around. I just cant make this feeling of guilt and shame go away.
Am I the only one who feels like this?
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I’m not even fifteen yet and I’ve already done everything there is to do. I lost my virginity in a public restroom to some guy that hasn’t even looked at me since. I know how you feel exactly. If there’s anything I’ve learned though its that you’re worth more than just sleeping around. That crap is great, but you have the rest of your life to do with someone who proves you’re better than this. I’ve recently realized how dumb the choices I’ve been making are and now I’m making better ones that benefit me in the end. Try it. I guarantee you’ll be happier. (:
In my experience, casual sex can be weird emotionally, because you still form an attachment to a person, and then maybe never se them again. It feels weird, empty.
So I guess, all I’d say is try to listen to and accomodate your own feelings, whatever they are.
I don’t think you are ready if you are thinking about others when it comes to your life and sexuality.
The only person involved in your sex life is you and sometimes another person. If you are worried about what your family will say maybe you should wait until you realise your full potential of being a women/man (You said boyfriend but i won’t assume).
Then you will realise how independent, fulfilling and powerful it is, and not something to be ashamed of.
There’s a double standard in society even today I think is a little wrong where if a guy sleeps with lots of women he’s a stud but if a women sleeps with lots of men she’s considered a whore. It’s something I don’t get and I wouldnt be surprised to see if it went away in my our lifetime