18 and hanging in there, realising its way easier when i decidei dont care lesz, drinking helps (i’ve just started) , it makes me feel good about myself, and confident and motivated. It bugs me how iam legally aloud to move out, and start my own life and stuff and i want to so bad because my lifehonestly kinda sucks right now but i dont even know how to move out? idk im scared to? im scared to be independant?I dont have a job yet for reasons……i honestly wanna move far away from everyone i know including my family, because of certain reasons, bad memories…fml idont know what to do
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I know dat feeling and i swear to God i feel safe reading ur post…but jst before u take d wrong step feel share ur heart with someone that cares but if there is none (just as it is wit me)then i tink u ve a friend in me..
Best thing I can say is enjoy the process…I remember from my own experience. So be gentle with yourself, give yourself the benefit of the doubt, don’t be afraid to make mistakes…this is a process…the process of learning how to manage yourself without family around barking in your ear. If your scared…that’s great that you admit that…truly, the more honest you are about how you feel the better you’ll get and figuring out how to make yourself feel more comfortable in the process & face your uncertainties. Look forward to it, enjoy it…you can’t get it wrong, live by your own standards that you create…Create your own way of doing things and be cool with it. YOu’re #1 and focus on your way and forget about what you’re family thinks The way you face fears is you face them head on…move towards what you’re scared about…that’s what being human is all about….you’re not supposed to have all the answers and be perfect so remember success is in the journey, just enjoy the journey and breathe, take it easy, and give yourself permission to have fun. The process will teach you. You’re all good. Email me if you want pauld891 at gmail dot com We drink cause we think we’ll feel better in the doing of it…whether it’s sex, drugs, or rock n’roll…so just choose to feel good despite what’s going on….the ceiling can be caving in and you can still choose to feel good…may not make sense but that’s the best advice I can give ya….I drank a lot for a while and then I figured I can just choose to be happy by making that choice…and I got better at it….I”m only saying this to you cause I know what it’s like to grow up in a dysfunctional family. Cheers!