I have read many of the posts and comments from all of you and have grown to appreciate you and feel like I know you at least a little. Actually I know more about you than I know of most people I’m in constant contact with. I haven’t been to this site much the last few days and am here now because I can’t sleep due to a terrible toothache.
Anyway, I really can’t formulate much of what to say about what you all wrote on this thread. In part because my mouth hurts so much that my head has began to throb. I just know when I read this it just made me want to give you a call and let you know you’ve got a friend and maybe that would make you feel a little better for a least a moment. But… I can’t call you so I’m writing.
So, take care. Sorry I commented without saying much.
My life seems very meaningless to me as well, simpy because I can’t seem to identify my purpose, if there is one. If you look around, you’ll notice that many people take refuge in raising a family, having a job, being a good person, etc. Those are conventional things that give a lot of people values and a sense of purpose-to raise a family. Now maybe that would be fulfilling for you. Maybe conventional things would be enough to make you happy and maybe you’re just having a hard time acquiring these things. Or maybe you’re like me and you’ve recognized the emptiness in them and are no longer blinded by the subjective morality expectancies of society, so you’re left with hardly anything that’s of value. I know how that feels. I think to be honest, no one has a divine purpose other than one that they make for themselves. Makes it seem kind of insignifigant and less-special though, right? Well I hope that you find something that is of value to you and I hope that when you do, you will be so wrapped up in it that you won’t worry yourself with the “absoluteness” of it.
@Mychoice. What do you mean a few more days? Is it really that soon? I don’t want you to go. I’ll miss you so much. I’m
not saying you shouldn’t do it for it IS YOUR CHOICE. But I know you being gone will affect the many you have come to know through this site.
Yes it’s less then a few days away. Please don’t say you’ll miss me, all I am is words on a screen in your life just like you to me, but that doesn’t mean I know your real. There are more important people in your life to value. You already know that though.
(…”heh, your not that big a deal”… lol I know.)
I can’t blame you though I feel the same when someone posts a leaving message.
I may be just words on a screen to you. But to me your a person who I value highly as I do most of the people on this site. And I know I should value the people in my life but I can’t. And won’t. They have all hurt me repeatedly an when I trust them they either laugh. Leave. Or act as if my words mean nothing. While you and tge others on this site have helped. It was you all who let me be able to talk and be herd. That’s not an easy thing to dismiss.
I value you all as well, it wasn’t supposed to sound so horrible. This is pretty stupid but what I was trying to say is I’d hate to think when I’m gone someone on the other side of the world would bring themselves further down because of me, if you know what I mean… guh that sounds like something a narcissist would say.
Wednesday, nobody should be home. I don’t even know if it will work though.
I remember once when I was little I tried that. It was a little after when I remember the incident with my grandpa. Because I didn’t really know what I was doing and didn’t really care what happened it didn’t work.
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What kind of circles? Emotional, personal?
me too.
me too!
same… just a couple more days.
Hello all 4 of you,
I have read many of the posts and comments from all of you and have grown to appreciate you and feel like I know you at least a little. Actually I know more about you than I know of most people I’m in constant contact with. I haven’t been to this site much the last few days and am here now because I can’t sleep due to a terrible toothache.
Anyway, I really can’t formulate much of what to say about what you all wrote on this thread. In part because my mouth hurts so much that my head has began to throb. I just know when I read this it just made me want to give you a call and let you know you’ve got a friend and maybe that would make you feel a little better for a least a moment. But… I can’t call you so I’m writing.
So, take care. Sorry I commented without saying much.
I don’t know what to say (I know I’ve said that a lot lately but it’s truth), I just wanted to let you know I read what you wrote unity, thanks.
My life seems very meaningless to me as well, simpy because I can’t seem to identify my purpose, if there is one. If you look around, you’ll notice that many people take refuge in raising a family, having a job, being a good person, etc. Those are conventional things that give a lot of people values and a sense of purpose-to raise a family. Now maybe that would be fulfilling for you. Maybe conventional things would be enough to make you happy and maybe you’re just having a hard time acquiring these things. Or maybe you’re like me and you’ve recognized the emptiness in them and are no longer blinded by the subjective morality expectancies of society, so you’re left with hardly anything that’s of value. I know how that feels. I think to be honest, no one has a divine purpose other than one that they make for themselves. Makes it seem kind of insignifigant and less-special though, right? Well I hope that you find something that is of value to you and I hope that when you do, you will be so wrapped up in it that you won’t worry yourself with the “absoluteness” of it.
@Mychoice. What do you mean a few more days? Is it really that soon? I don’t want you to go. I’ll miss you so much. I’m
not saying you shouldn’t do it for it IS YOUR CHOICE. But I know you being gone will affect the many you have come to know through this site.
~evergone
Yes it’s less then a few days away. Please don’t say you’ll miss me, all I am is words on a screen in your life just like you to me, but that doesn’t mean I know your real. There are more important people in your life to value. You already know that though.
(…”heh, your not that big a deal”… lol I know.)
I can’t blame you though I feel the same when someone posts a leaving message.
(I’m an idiot) correction: … that doesn’t mean I don’t [believe] your real…
(actually sounds stupid anyway but…)
I may be just words on a screen to you. But to me your a person who I value highly as I do most of the people on this site. And I know I should value the people in my life but I can’t. And won’t. They have all hurt me repeatedly an when I trust them they either laugh. Leave. Or act as if my words mean nothing. While you and tge others on this site have helped. It was you all who let me be able to talk and be herd. That’s not an easy thing to dismiss.
And You are not an idiot.
How much longer?
I value you all as well, it wasn’t supposed to sound so horrible. This is pretty stupid but what I was trying to say is I’d hate to think when I’m gone someone on the other side of the world would bring themselves further down because of me, if you know what I mean… guh that sounds like something a narcissist would say.
Wednesday, nobody should be home. I don’t even know if it will work though.
What do you plan to do?
I got this very simple way to hang myself, it’s so simple which is why I’m not sure it will work but it can hold my weight, so it should.
I remember once when I was little I tried that. It was a little after when I remember the incident with my grandpa. Because I didn’t really know what I was doing and didn’t really care what happened it didn’t work.