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Very unsure of the future. My heart beats blood.

Freedom

by 78hundred 8/22/2014

written by 78hundred

Finally, it makes sense.

Just give up on the idea of a perfect social conforming future. Ha!

I’ve never felt so comfortable in my life. I never have to care again.

If I don’t find a job, stiff biscuits! I’m at home anyway, so support is always there.

No partner ever again. Been there, experienced it. Better than not having had that at all.

It just moves on. Carefree as it goes. The only stresses in life are the ones caused by excessive desire for social success and the needless comparison to other people, who don’t care about you anyway.

So I say fuck it! Take your […]

8/22/2014 4 comments

Suicide Project Publishes your email address

by 78hundred 6/11/2013

written by 78hundred

Some people don’t know this and need to know this!

When people have responded to my posts on this site I have received their email address that they used when they registered on this site and this email also contained their IP address!

This is not cool and people need to know this! Your email address and IP address is being spread by this WordPress site to people who you don’t know!

There is an icon in the top left corner that resembles a comic book speech bubble. By clicking on this you can see information about people’s email addresses if they are posting to your feed! This […]

6/11/2013 17 comments

Lonely and ashamed!

by 78hundred 6/10/2013

written by 78hundred

Social anxiety disorder has completely consumed my life. I don’t have any friends left. Most of them have moved on because my avoidant behaviour is very off putting. I don’t blame them for that.

I’m so depressed about my life and what is going on for me. I attend college and am scoring well in my exams, but I can’t even say “hello” to the other students. There really is little benefit in scoring well in theory when you can’t put this into practice in our very social society.

Sometimes I put on a brave face and say that I feel okay and that I don’t care […]

6/10/2013 6 comments

No pain, is your gain.

by 78hundred 6/2/2013

written by 78hundred

I want to help people understand that there is some positivity in the way they express themselves. This desire for a painless death that so many people talk about on this site is a positive sign.

You don’t really want to die and you are unconsciously grabbing onto something in your mind as a positive element that makes you want to hold on!

Remember REM: hold on!

Delaying is a great technique! “I’ll do it tomorrow.” Then, tomorrow arrives and you say, “I’ll do it tomorrow.”

Stay safe! I think you all have something to contribute to the world. Having survived a serious suicide attempt, I realise how wrong […]

6/2/2013 3 comments

You Guys are a Bunch of Beautiful People

by 78hundred 5/28/2013

written by 78hundred

Enough said!

5/28/2013 5 comments

Forever Forlorn

by 78hundred 5/26/2013

written by 78hundred

G’day,

It has been a heavily frustrating and lonely road for the last 15 or so years. Social anxiety has consumed much of this time and although I’ve attempted suicide once before, it has been very difficult to make another attempt. This may be a very positive thing; but, I can’t help but feel an increased sense of anxiety with each failed attempt at meeting with new people.

It’s interesting that as I get more comfortable with being a social outcast, it seems that I lose more of my social ability, from what little there was to begin with anyway.

It may be something to do with giving […]

5/26/2013 0 comment