I was doing so well. I was enjoying life more than I could have imagined for the last few months. I have great career prospects, excellent friends and a marvellous family but there’s that one thing missing, that one thing which will always be missing.
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ive posted a few post in the last few days about not being able to get the courage to find out what’s on the othersside. Well foolish or not I’ve pretty much managed to get myself the motivation to do it. Thinking of past relationship, dead end job etc so hopefully within the next few days/weeks I’ll have done. I’d rather be told by a doctor I have X weeks to live, that way nobody thinks I wanted this but that’s looking unlikely.
Anyway, if you don’t hear back from me then I’ll see you wherever we end up!
people say they have no regrets well I […]
who actively looks for dates for over a year and doesn’t even get close to one? Me. Who lost the only person who genuinely did like them because of paranoia. Me. I can’t wait to get the strength to finally find out what’s on the other side. I hope it’s soon
I’m getting closer to being able to finally find out what’s on the other side. It’s only family keeping me here. But everyday, the more I think about it, the closer the desire gets.
Has anyone thought of maybe castration or brain training to stop the urge for happiness relying on someone else? If maybe be we could take a magical pill to not want anyone else in our lives and be able to be happy with just ourselves, life might just be worth it? Ive been trying to be sole person in charge of my happiness but this terrible, social human nature is stopping that.
ive heard chemical castration is very hard to get unless your a high risk sex offender. Anyone know of any legal way to persuade a doctor?
Im tired of feeling like this. I’m tired of not wanted to live but not wanting to die. I’m tired of being afraid to love. I’m just tired of life.
hopefully one day I’ll be able to send myself to sleep forever