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Revival

by __D__ 2/17/2014

written by __D__

It’s been three weeks since I picked up a knife

And took it to my skin, when I began to slice

With each cut I made, the weaker I felt

And my heart had been filled to the top with guilt

It’s been two weeks since I wanted to die

To just disappear, oh how I wanted to cry

I wanted to lay in my grave and never wake again

But instead I took my feelings down with paper and a pen

It’s been one week since I last had bad thoughts

I’ve been doing what I can to survive, with everything I’ve got

I’ve been revived, I’m living a life

A life where I don’t […]

2/17/2014 0 comment

Frayed

by __D__ 1/25/2014

written by __D__

Another day, another page

Counting down

Another tear, another fear

Coming to an end

My book is worn and frayed

Focusing only on mistakes I have made

I can’t help but cry

The scars run so deep

Just like a river

Tears bring me to sleep

Behind this smile

is an empty soul

Behind these eyes

coloured charcoal

Behind every word

Behind every thought

Behind every scar

Worthy of life I’m not

To be loved is earned

To be forgiven is yearned

To be rejected is pain

To be forgotten…

Like a midsummer rain…

1/25/2014 2 comments

Burning Out

by __D__ 1/24/2014

written by __D__

Forgive me, for I have sinned..

I have committed acts of lust

I have committed acts of hatred

I have committed acts of theft

I have committed acts of homosexuality

I have committed acts of pride

I have committed acts of greed

I have committed acts of gluttony

I have committed acts of lying

I have committed acts of being agnostic

I have committed acts of feeling suicidal

And here I stand on two feet

Waiting to be struck down

To burn, to live an eternity in Hell

I may be a sinner, but won’t my good deeds in this mortal life do anything for me in the afterlife?

Will I stand at the gates of Heaven, and fall into […]

1/24/2014 2 comments

Float

by __D__ 1/24/2014

written by __D__

Floating on a cloud

Drifting away into the blue sky

Sleeping the days away

I’m not good with goodbyes

Feeling numb, nervous

This isn’t a typical day

Falling into deep sleep

At least I know I’m okay

Looking far into the distance

I can see storm clouds appear

I shiver as the cold bites my nose

I will be okay, there’s nothing to fear

Opening my eyes

I’m sheltered by the sun

Thoughts race through my vacant mind

No need to run

Passing a mountain

I stare into the sea

Watching this last sunset

I float away, so let me be…

1/24/2014 18 comments

Drowning

by __D__ 1/21/2014

written by __D__

I can feel myself being pulled under,

Deep into the depths of the ocean

I look up; I can see the dim sunlight underneath the water

The last glimpse of sunlight I’ll ever see

I use my hands to claw on to whatever I can find

But to no avail, they splash through the murky sea

I think of all the things I’ve done

The good and the bad

And how they would reflect me in my passing

Like the reflections of the sky in the ocean

Through the light and the darkness

Through the sun and the storms

My life was merely just a chapter in a book

And my chapter would be passed over for more

For […]

1/21/2014 1 comment

I drank the last sip of wine, and set the bottle down. My medicine was failing me, my loved ones had failed me, and lastly, I had failed myself. Tonight was the night, I told myself. I had no desire to stick around any longer. I had only caused myself misery, and made everyone else’s lives complete shit. I was a heavy weight on everyone’s shoulders, a boulder, weighing down until I was dropped so suddenly to the ground. I looked at the fireplace and closed my eyes. I could hear yelling and screaming inside my head, visions of violence played out over and over […]

1/17/2014 7 comments

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Revival

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Float

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