I’ve dicided to order a journal and with that journal i will write down things i would like to do before i end my life. I have bean dying inside everyday suffering in silence and i cant live like this anymore. I know that this will make my family very upset but i feel as if this is something that will bring me pease.
I really just want to die today. I feel trapped. I feel pressured to “feel better” by my mom and my therapist. I feel like theres no coming back from depression. Theres no making it go away. There is no hope for me. My mom is telling me how to feel. Everything just feels too much.
I am depressed and I’ve been depressed for many years now. I have told my mom what I was going through and she ignored me. I’ve told her two times what I was going through and I got nothing. But just recently, she listened but I’ve decided now its too late. I’m going to do it. I’m going to kill myself. Some time in the future but it will come.