i feel so alone. i know everyone feels alone. but i feel like i have no excuse to feel the way i do. i feel like everyone who has the same problems as me is able to deal with them or able to get on with their life and i don’t know why i’m so absolutely pathetic about everything that happens to me. autism makes my life difficult but there are so many autistic people i know who have friends and partners adn are able to function normally so that can’t be it. being trans makes my life difficult but i know so many trans […]
My family loves me so much and the idea of them having to deal with my suicide is the one thing that has kept me from killing myself for years. I know how lucky I am to have people who care about me and who love me but I don’t think I can go on like this. The idea of causing them that level of pain literally turns me into a sobbing panicking wreck but I don’t know what other option I have. I can’t keep going like this. I want to drive them away from me. I want no one to love me and […]