I’ve been suicidal since I was 12.I had some pretty serious reasons. But I went through my teenage years with  the help of my best friends Then I changed country,  i was far away from my traumas so i tried to forget about them and having good grades and being a good girl. Then i met him 5 years  ago, we’ve been together ever since. I told him about my traumas and he understood. 2 years ago stg pretty traumatic happened and bring back all the suppressed memories..I started to have nightmares insomnia etc..Last year i got very sick and almost died(i kinda regret it didn’t happen). […]
I’ve never felt like i’ve belonged anywhere.On paper i have a pretty perfect life… but i spent 10 years with a secret that drove me to depression.Now the secret is out, i feel like i lost that one thing that defined me for so many years…i dont know who i am anymore.my mom and my bf love me and im trying to survive for them but i dont wanna live.i want to stop existing.it hurts my bf when i tell him that but if suicide is selfish isn’t it equally selfish to force someone stay alive? y wont he let me die…I don’t wanna hurt […]