I feel as if I don’t even have problems.
I tell myself that they aren’t real, that I make them up.
I fight with myself to stay alive daily.
I am my biggest fear.
I scare myself of what I do to myself.
Destroying myself.
It’s as if my insides are eating me up.
Just taking me down from where I don’t want to.
Sometimes I don’t win against myself and I get hurt.
It doesn’t hurt anymore but still.
I try to stay alive for the loved one’s around me but,
it hurts trying.
Trying just makes it worse.