Always find this an interesting intro to the show “Cheers”
http://youtu.be/xvRGh2NEjSU
of course M.A.S.H.’s theme is lovely too…
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Anyone else ever feel like they’re in some movie. Here I am sitting in my dark room with depressing-ish music, door closed yet I hear family playing with my niece and laughing and such. Or maybe just a feeling of being on the outside of life, and you just watch everyone else go throughout their lives. Some specter.
I hate how often I can read a post on here…but I can’t say anything. All I want to do is give the person a hug or something…
Everyday I think to myself: Why am I not dead yet? All of this is POINTLESS. So why bother? Maybe I could suffer through this, but I’d be SUFFERING. Everyday it’s the distractions, it’s the “what can I do to NOT think about X” – but it comes to mind anyway, stays there. All those bad thoughts make a cozy home in my mind. I question why I don’t just write up a note and go already…I’m so confused. I’m almost fed up with this “try to change” shit.
It’s no matter. Everything, nothing. Please somehow show me how to change myself, to make things better – because so far my efforts are merely in vain. My own mind teases me – “Oh hey, you’re good, you’re great, things are going to work now!”. Give it a few days, if that, back to: “Fuck!! I hate myself! I hate all this shit! I could give TWO FUCKING SHITS about EVERYTHING! I AM DONE!”. Release the beast, the demon, the real me from its temporary hiding place, or maybe cage. Too bad, so sad – it can’t stay there.
I really don’t know what to do […]