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April12

I tried to commit suicide April 12, 2015. No one knows they only thought I wrote a suicide note. Everyday is a challenge. I fake being happy to get out of therapy. I can't write in a journal anymore because my parents go through it continuously. So why not people feeling the same way? I am 14 and in the 8th grade. I didn't try to kill myself because I wasn't pretty or skinny enough. I didn't because all the judgemental states and all the expectations I fail to succeed at.

Count to Ten and All is Well Again

by April12 5/19/2015

written by April12

I thought about suicide again today. The pill bottle was in my reach. All I had to do was grab it and walk to my room, but I didn’t. While I was walking by all I could think was “Life is worth living. You have to live.” Now I know I should have done it. The pain I feel everyday is like a whole getting bigger and bigger. It feels like someone is scraping the inside of my chest out. I just get so angry and I try to calm down. There is this method my Mom told me about. She always said “Count to […]

5/19/2015 3 comments