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arapaho36

I am a 36 year old female. I am also a mother. I was emotionally and physically abused at a young age. I started thinking about suicide at agge 16. At 17 I did tried my first overdose. I have been in an out of hospital through years and finally was diagnosed with being bi-polar. I know it's selfish for me to think about it and have attempted it a few times. I just feel like a failure.

by arapaho36 1/31/2012

written by arapaho36

I’m not sure what I’m doing here. All I know is today I feel really bad. I feel like an empty shell just living life as a robot. I am afraid of the darkness yet I want it to engulf me, I just want the pain to end.Â Â It’s been so long living with heartache and the bad memories. I just feel like I want it all to end I’m so tired, so tired I just can’t out of this hole. I pray I can overcome this but I never can. I just it want it all to end just go into the darkness and dissapear.

1/31/2012 1 comment