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I’m sorry but I need to let this out before I go.

I can’t live like this anymore. I can’t live trapped in my own brain. I can’t break out and just be myself. I hate waking up hating myself for being this loser. I hate that I can’t be like everyone else. I can’t really talk, I can’t join in, I can’t have fun. I’ve talked some but it’s still always censored and reserved. It’s not the real me. It’s the quiet conservative personality I learned in order to make it through my childhood. I hate myself for still being like this. No one has […]

I’m never going to get better. I’m never going to break out of this prison. I’m never going to have a future worth living. Every ray of light goes out. Every new window is a false hope. I swear it’s like life is stringing me along, and I don’t think I can live like this anymore. I don’t know if another opportunity to make progress will present itself again. The one I had might be gone, idk, but even if it isn’t I really don’t want to bother trying. I’m tired of being locked inside of my own mind. I’m tired of how much I […]