It’s hard to actually commit suicide. Before we do that, we try to use out all the resources to prevent our own deaths. A few weeks ago, when I’ve became sucidal, I’ve became genuinely affraid of the seriousness of my intents. I reminded myself of those stories, where a depressed person gets to be saved just because they decided to confess and reach out to someone. So, I’ve decided to do the same. I was looking for a sign to give me one faint reason not to kill myself. Guess what… Yeah, you’ve guessed right.
I was so alone and desperate that I used to hang […]