I tried to hang myself and I fell and when I got up I looked in the mirror and my neck was bruised, and red! If I can’t die, how am I going to live walking around with these marks all over my neck!!!!!
How do I hide them!?
I’m afraid of happy people. They are chemically unbalanced!
Sometimes I like to just stand on the chair with a cable cord or belt around my neck, afraid to kick away the chair and die already. I know I won’t ever kick the bucket like that. I just like to…feel in control.
I really like being happy. But it takes too much, it’s very hard to work for. Nothing ever really swings in balance anymore since my friends had left. I guess I feel the same way you people do. Depressed, lonely, stranded
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