It is weird that one thing that is keeping me alive is that I think some people would enjoy it if I did. It is not a far fetched thought, because one of our colleagues killed himself in the past and I have seen friends gossiping and not giving a fuck in general. I was hurt because he was kind of isolated and not very good socially , just like me.
Now that my career is going down hill and seeing these “friends” of mine enjoying every moment of it drives me crazy. I lost my passion to think work or do anything I used to do before as a result of […]