I am a 34 year old male. I suffer from severe bipolar disorder, with psychosis, PTSD as the result of rape, sexual abuse, and several gunfights. I’m also a drug addict and an alcoholic. I absolutely and unequivocally hate my life, the hell through which I live on a daily basis.
There is very little respite from this agony. Five or ten minutes, perhaps an hour at a time. Alcohol and drugs, in general, no longer help. I take medication, which has limited effect, even when sober for months at a time. I believe in God, but ever since my father died, I’ve hated God. Still […]