i have only realized quite a while ago that what ive been and am going through is genuine real abuse. though even before that point, each time i asked for help it was ignored completely. with this and all other failures in my life, how am i not meant to think that its all worthless
i am tired of needing to be strong and im tired of hearing about how brave i am for “keeping it going” when nothing is going anywhere
i sometimes do consider asking for just a little more help but the want to is always intertwined with this fundamental fear of […]
what are you supposed to do when you know that death is your only option?
i feel the answer is obvious, yet something inside me refuses to believe it. i know that its mainly fear, of the action and of the unknowable consequences. i think i care too much. a lot of times, i wish that i could care less so that it may be easier to go through with it.
i believe i genuinely have nothing going for me. i am an academic failure. i lose jobs after half a year maximum. i now feel like i cant commit to finding a new […]