I miss you. I hope you are doing alright. I can’t say the same for myself. I’m lonely. I’m hurting. And I don’t have anyone who actually matters that can relate and understand. It’s better if they don’t understand. No one knows how to deal with me at all, let alone well, but myself. And I don’t want it coming from me… that isn’t… So I don’t let them. I won’t ever put them in the position to help me, to see it all. I am not strong enough to handle the damage and neither are they. They will get hurt. Badly… I know I’m […]
i really really kinda wanna not be alive right now… i don’t mind dying… for once I don’t mind even killing myself
it’s about time anyways
I saw her from across the ocean
I saw galaxies in her eyes
Burning as time passed her by
I saw blooms in her smile
Joyfully promising lies
Dying as time passed us by
I saw a dream on her mind
Longingly dreaming of time
But time only passed by
I saw the tears she’d fight
Breaking and mending and kind
Her heart slowly healing with time
I saw the dawn of light
Blinding her image from sight
Time passed by, she’d be alright
I’m begging you
stop
spare yourself the heartache
I’m begging dear
I’m a mistake
you don’t want to make
turn back
it isn’t too late
I’m begging you
stop
It’s still just a scratch
I’m begging dear
please heal
give yourself time
time to mend the cracks
time to forget the past
time to find a way
any other but the way back
Let me go
don’t be selfish
don’t you see
this is what my hell is
Let me go
let me end it
I’ll disappear without a trace
accept it
Let me go
don’t follow
see the world
embrace it
Let me go
and please, be selfish
let the sunshine in
this needn’t be what hell is
Hi,
I suppose I’m new here… or not really… I’ve been on this site on and off for a couple of years maybe. It is today that I do more than read, though…
It is today that I can’t go on, silent… I’m breaking, and hurting, and the worst of all is that it is not me who is hurt. I’m hurting others.
The same others that take care of me. The same others that care for me. The same others that choose to love me. Hurt.
My life is falling apart and it is my closest that are taking the shrapnels… I can’t take it anymore… I’m a […]
Why?
I’m bleeding blind.
Why?
Cut. Cry. Rewind.
Clean and cold
Crimson tears on stone
Why?
You scream for attention
Then hurry and hide
I bear the aggression
My scars your sacrifice
Why?
I own you,
I’m the best you’ve got.
You have nowhere to go,
But a single shot.
Run! I dare you,
Escape!
Seek light. Leave me behind.
Me people will pity,
When you’re all they find.