So as some of you may know, on October 16th I tried to end my life but survived. Well Now it’s been nearly 5 months and I’m healing. I went to a therapist last month and that really helped. I’m happy again, finally after all this time. I live in a town where we have lost 6 kids in the past year alone to suicide. It’s pretty tough. But now our town is growing together and helping each other get better. We started our own suicide prevention and help page and everyone is sharing stories of survival and triumph and struggle. Prayers are being shared […]
I’m not sure how long it’s been since I posted. I tried to end it on the 16th of October I believe and survived. Now I’m here. I’ve come along way in the past not quiet a month. Or has it been a month? I’m not sure what the date is today. I’ve sort of lost all track of time. But I’ve been better. A lot better. I dated someone. It was nice to feel appreciated and to think that someone found me attractive. He treated me pretty well for those two short weeks. My parents haven’t fought with me much lately and frankly all […]
On the 16th, Tuesday, I attempted to kill myself by overdosing on pills. By the time I was done taking what I had, I had taken approximately 60 pills. I woke up at 4am Wednesday morning puking my guts out. It felt crappy. Let’s be honest puking until; you have nothing left to puke up and then still puking anyways isn’t fun. I didn’t go to a doctor. I was pretty scared to tell my mom that I tried to kill myself so I just kept quiet and said I had the flu. I stayed home for the rest of the week then spent the […]
I’m really tired of feeling so worthless so today I decided to end my life. I took 20-30 different pain killers and nothing has happened.. I don’t know why it didn’t at least make me sick. So I guess today I’m surviving my suicide but I’m not pleased by it at all. I took 24 acetaminophen (extra strength), 10-15 advil, 2 liquid gel advil (extra strength), and 3 liquid gel midol (extra strength). And it’s been hours. Nothing. Curse this stupid society I’m forced to live in. Curse it!
Today I took approximately 20 extra strength acetaminophen, 10-15 regular advil, 2 extra strength liquid gell advil, and 2 extra strength liquid gel midol. How long will it take me to at least get sick? I had a awful head ache for like an hour after taking it all but other then that nothing has happened..