Nothing will ever be the same again. I’m broken and can’t be fixed. You promised you’d never leave me, promised you loved me. Made me trust you, made me feel safe. Now you’re gone I’m empty. People tell me it will get easier, I’ll move on and be happy again but they don’t know how I’m feeling. I don’t want to move on, I don’t want to be happy again. I don’t deserve to be. I had a family and I lost it, I had it taken from me. Nothing’s ever going to be okay again.
I can’t stand the pain I am in any longer. Doctors and social workers tell me to be strong, focus on what I have rather than what I have lost. I’ve tried, it doesn’t work, I can’t do it. How can I focus on my kids when I know I am wrong for them? I can’t give them what they need and deserve. I had a family…. not perfect but we were a unit, I knew my role, I knew what to expect each day…. I had a job, I had a home, I had someone who loved me and now it’s all gone. Ripped […]
I feel like I’m drowning, I’m screaming for help but there’s no one there to save me. I feel worthless, useless, unloved. I feel totally alone. I feel there’s no hope for me now. In the space of 4 weeks I have lost everything. My partner of 12 years had a breakdown of his own…. well that’s what I am assuming, he was paranoid, angry all the time, saying crazy things and acting crazy, so I suggested he take a night away to have some space. He got out of the car and said ” see you tomorrow ” and I haven’t seen him since. […]