I’m back after 2 years. Still the same lonely worthless waste of space I was before. If not worse. Been through the meds and therapy to a point I cannot afford anymore. The only thing that’s changed maybe my determination to end it all. Researched the fastest, painless way to go and even that I cannot afford. Drew up a bucket list and no surprises there…even that doesn’t come cheap.
I’m so sick and tired that I have even dried my washing inside the house to avoid facing the world outside this door. Now I just feel numb. I just want to vanish. I have […]
I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember – A Fake! Walking around…all smiles, but deep down I want to scream.I know, I know…gotta see the glass as half full and all. But then I ask why? I haven’t been suicidal but I’m also not “living the life”. I can try to pick myself up but at the back of my head I ask why. Its tiring. It seems I prefer to be a zombie. I dont have to talk that way. I don’t have to put up with pretenses. People pretending to care. People commenting on trivial shit because […]