I am not suicidal. My bestfriend of 15 years killed herself  December of 2012.
I do not share my story often. Alissa was a very happy go lucky girl. Hardly ever a tear in her eye. No one ever saw it coming. It’s almost been a year and it’s still very hard for me to cope with. I think “what if I wasn’t there as much as I should’ve been?” or “maybe it was my fault or something I said or did?” Sometimes I feel like I told her too much of my problems that she had extra stress on her back that she didn’t need. […]