all i’ve done was be your best friend. and here you are making me cry every night with your hurtful words.
i started to believe him.. now i don’t want to eat anymore.
i’m fucking lonely.
i just want to scream, because i’m hurting so badly inside. i just want to kick a wall and jump off my goddamn roof. i can see it, sooner or later i’m going to be pushed over the edge.
thanatophobia is the only thing holding me back. thanatophobia is the reason i’m still alive. thanatophobia is why no one has seen my suicide letter. one day, i will overcome my thanatophobia. one day, i will take my own life.
i’d like to get out of my house.
my father is extremely verbally abusive. more than a year ago, he lost his job. he’s only gotten worse since then. i often get out of the house & walk to my best friend’s house, makeup completely washed away from tears. too bad i always have to go back. i’d do anything to stay at my friend’s house; her family actually likes me. they care about me.
i grew severly depressed 2 & 1/2 years ago, and for a few months it dissipated as i fell in love. but later, i realized it was just a distraction. and now […]