I’ve been contemplating my death for years, but recently it has become a constant thought. I’m continually planning exactly everything I need to do to make sure that no one has to clean up after me, no physical, financial, or emotional mess. I don’t want my mum to have to deal my mess.
I’m a mum, and this makes it hard, because I love them so much, but I’m destroying them, my whole being is pointless, and toxic in their lives, and they deserve so much more. I just don’t want them to have any burden…If I was able to just disappear and there would be […]