I think an important question to ask yourself is, if everything in your life was normal and “going well”, would I still be depressed? When I mean going well, I mean to an outsider your life would seem normal and to the people who are in your family you’d appear normal. It’s something to think about because if you say no to that question, I think it is more about trying to get every ounce of your strength to change your life around. whether your answer is yes, no, or even in between, life will always be a struggle and everyone will have different struggles. […]
I’ve thought of suicide a lot because of social anxiety and shame but I’ve never actually attempted suicide. I feel like I don’t have it that bad but feel that if I was pushed a little further I might end up ending myself. I haven’t felt so scared in my life.