I think I should start off with wow, it’s been almost an entire year since I’ve been on this site and not much has happened but several major things happened since then. For starters I graduated, I was so afraid I wouldn’t and would stress out to the point of break downs, which is why I’m currently on a year break before I start college, the second big thing that happened was I spoke to my brother for the first time in years, although it’s still a bit tense between us I get to see my nieces and nephew, the third is I left a […]
Im just so numb now, I’ve been crying for the past 4 hrs and it continues
I just choked myself for quite a while but slowly released my neck.
Sometimes I feel like you’re just with me because you’re loney and need someone to talk to when it comes to you, but when I need you, you’re not there for me you just say, oh, I’m sorry, but then theres times I feel like you’re actually with me for me but that’s very rare now.. Like when you get mad that i don’t reply or call but that’s because I’m doing something or helping someone but you still get mad regardless which is something I don’t understand but you can do it to me and not expect me to get mad or cry.. […]
Today I sat in my room in silence staring at the floor realizing I have nothing , no one. I realized i don’t have anyone there for me when i need them, that my parents don’t realize how depressed i am, that no one asks how i am, no one checks on my mental health, that in the end everyone has their own person, my mom has my dad, aaron has eric, you have your ducklings and dad, danielle has her boyfriend and sister, everyone has someone but me, because in the end im the second chose like always. Yesterday i cried because i finally […]