Another boring, frustrating, lonely day. Suicide is not far from my mind.
I’m stagnating. No friends, no family, no girlfriend, no chance of getting one. Life is pointless.
Imagine being treated as a fully grown adult by everyone as an autistic who was never even taught shit about fuck by my useless narcissistic mother. I don’t even know how to cook. I don’t think people take developmental disabilities seriously. I read that well over 90% of autistic people living on their own don’t have jobs. Not to mention I have ADHD on top of that. Yessir, I’m alive and thriving! No really, I’m doing just as shitty as the last time you asked me, retard. I just wanna live with my mom. But then she gives me the tough shit act, being the […]
Just saw a political ad. Who the hell takes their child to a political rally? There were children in the front row.
My self is disappearing again. I want to cut myself so bad. Just to see if my blood is still pure. It’s the only thing that brings me back to reality. If I were ever cut myself and see that my blood is impure, I would kill myself.
I have no family and I don’t belong anywhere, I want to kill myself. My mother had me and then didn’t take care of me. She had me at 38. I’m slightly autistic or ADHD or developmentally disabled/schizophrenic because of it. Sigh. I’m approaching 30 and I find that nothing changes. I’ve been trying to get in contact with a few people for ages now, my friends don’t even answer my messages. People don’t give a shit about me and I resent them cause I find them all selfish for cutting me out just because I’m different. I find the lack of any real ingenuity […]