I have been happy maybe once. My first boyfriend i loved so much. Every other day of my life is so unhappy. Good things happen, but the default of my emotions are extremely sad. I take 2 different Add meds in the day. That helps sometimes. Pot is very much helpful. I can be sobbing and i smoke and its like i didnt feel like that. I have tried so many times to die. I dont want to because im a Christian and i have two cats i would never leave behind. What the hell should i do then?
