I haven’t been suicidal for around a year so far but I still can never shake the feeling of never feeling truly alive. It’s like I feel that no matter how okay things can get it’s always in my mind that it’s an eventuality that I will commit suicide. It’s like how some people think of their future and how they think they’re destined to become a doctor, but my mind just makes me think I’m destined to kill myself. It just makes everything kind of hard to do when it comes to mind.
