im so fucking ugly. i want to die.
crippledbyfearandselfloathing
crippledbyfearandselfloathing
i am 18. i am crippled by depression and anxiety. i have an extremely difficult time leaving the house. i only have few friends left. i have so much hate for myself and i am filled with sadness that can't be described. there is no meaning to any of this. there is only pain. i'm only on this site because i have no other options anymore. i'm desperate for a way out. i think some of us are punished because we are not good enough to exist and because we do, this is our punishment and there is no reason why.
i’m so sick and tired of existing. sometimes i don’t feel fear, i am terrified of the pain that will come with killing myself because there is no easy way out, but sometimes i feel no fear, i feel desperation and unbearable pain. i just want it to be over and i NEED the courage to just fucking do it. i’m miserable and tired. the worst part to all of this is that there is no reason behind any of the pain that i feel or for that matter the pain anybody feels. theres no reason. no meaning. nothing. as they say, shit just happens. […]