After years of depression, suicidal thoughts and a failed attempt I think it’s finally time.
First attempt was drug OD. I remember doing tons of research and planning. Dressing up and feeling happy on that day. I’ve never felt more happy than that for a long long time. I was found and therefore still alive.
It was never a rash decision. Every night I go to sleep hoping I’ll never wake up again. Every morning is just another disappointment. Then I had to make a choice or staying alive or ending my life. And I regret my choice of staying alive every single day.
I can’t even explain […]