My counselor told me that I need to spend time with people, that I’m alone too much. So I’ve been trying to spend time with people, people at school, people at work. I’ve been planning stuff with buddies and spending a lot of time with people who I can call buddies. The problem is that I still don’t feel right. See, before this I was always down and depressed and alone, but when I wasn’t alone I would sometimes (rarely) talk about my pain to people who I kind of trust (I don’t trust very much or very often), and I would feel this connection […]
As the title says, first post here. I’ve never really posted on any forums before so this is very new. I’ve wondered about suicide for a while. I’m nineteen, but I’ve had a lot of shit happen. I had no father and an abusive mother who accused me of trying to kill her and of hiding things, she mind fucked me. I started to believe her I think, maybe that’s why I feel so much hate towards myself now. I feel so much anger inside, I wish I could find her and put a gun to her head and blow her goddamn brains out, but […]