im so scared in a couple hours i will be going to my firist therapy. i dont know if it will help or just make things worse. can i really tell her my whole life. the life my parents dont know. is she going to ask the last time i tried to hurt/kill myself. will i have to go every week or once a month just so confusing….
as a only child you would espect for me to have what ever i wanted. but thats not the case. i only wanted peace in my house. i hate when anybody faught and that includs my parents. now they are seperating and they always put me in this wierd postion who i like better. can i honestly tell them ive been tired of there shit for years no i guess not cause im that perfect child that they want me to be. but they dont know half my life
i was having fun. it feels so weird to say i was having … fun it lasted for a hour til she came.and stoled all attention to me with her short ass shorts. the only ones there who made me feel like a somebody were genaro cris and alfonso 3 people out of 10 Â actually paid attention after she came im glad
i told him why, and again im the one left with the knife to my wrist but it doesnt matter they dont care for me like they do for her im just that girl whos there. no meaning, just taking oxegon all i will be remebered for is that emo chick who hangs out with iris.all i will be rembered for. of course i told him. he told me to stop being depressed how can some just stop being depress
i thought about suicide i almost tired i wrote the letters to the ones i think that would actually care if i died but it doesnt matter my bestfriend loves my ex that i still love i try to put a smile on so they can have a happy life. a couple months and we will be going to different school and maybe the pain will stop it wont matter because he made me fall for him i did this a time before and it ended the same way and i found out that he just used me. i sit hear and wonder does anyone care or do […]
i feel like im the one always saying sorry
i didnt mean to cause it
i was just being myself
im sorry if im not fake like her
im sorry if i cry
im sorry im not important
im sorry she had suregy
while i sit every night in pain
knowing there nothing the doc can do
but it wont matter i have my knife on my wrist
and i feel okay