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Help unwanted

by deep 6/15/2016

written by deep

I’m stuck and can’t move on. It’s been a long time since I wrote some small stuff here, but…

The problem is: I’m a loving partner to my man, but he doesn’t need my help (he told me) in anything. Sometimes it seems he doesn’t need me at all. He’s got this depression and I’m trying to make him feel better, give him some positive outlooks on life and smile a bit, but he keeps telling me it’s of no use and that he’d understand if I found another man- in a way he told me to do it. Also, he begs me not to care about him.But I do care […]

6/15/2016 3 comments

Waitin’

by deep 5/17/2015

written by deep

The day is near its end.

Blinds are down.

I can’t stand

on my legs.

in this lonely town.

He isn’t here

to wipe my weary tear.

I’m waiting.

Nothing happens.

I’m

run out of tissues,

misused.

5/17/2015 6 comments

I’m barriers to his exit

by deep 4/21/2015

written by deep

hello everybody.

what would you do if…?

your partner wanted to go his own way, live his own way, cut all the links with people he has known and live as a hermit, wanderer in the forests far away from the human noise?

He was just about to do it when we first met. He’s a man-hater and says he could live without people happily. He despises the whole system, machinery, life full of bans, laws, taxes and doctors.

He often reminds me of his wish and lately, I have been feeling worthless and an idea came to my mind: If I weren’t here, he could have fulfilled his […]

4/21/2015 4 comments

It turned out bad

by deep 4/15/2015

written by deep

hell, I was so happy last year. New flat, new work, old friends, the most amazing boyfriend in my life…and now?
I fear death. Not my own. I can’t bear the thought of surviving while my beloved one doesn’t. I can’t see my beloved die, so I die first. don’t we have the right to choose and push the escape button?

It is so dangerous to love and then fear the death of that loving person.

4/15/2015 6 comments