I need help going through with it, I don’t want to go on anymore this is 100% my decision, please don’t say ‘don’t go through with it’ or ‘think of your family’ that’s not fair, also this is basically inevitable I’ve postponed this so many times and realized it’s not going away so how can I convince myself to do it? Also me not being able to go through with it has nothing to do with not wanting to do it, it’s just instincts.
Hi, I have really wild depressive/suicidal episodes that just totally demotivate me and has really bad psychological impacts. It usually starts from something little and I just get super suicidal to the point where I’m on the edge of doing it. I really don’t want to live my life like this soon somethings gonna snap and I’m gonna do it, each time it’s worse. Last time it happened I put a bag over my head and the the only thing that stopped me was thinking about my family finding my body. This time I was at my friends house and for two days all I […]
So basically this is my life:
Ok so as far back as I remember I’ve been severally depressed, not the kind where I hold a knife to my arms at night but the self implosion kind, always thinking your worthless, don’t belong, can’t do one thing right etc..
My whole life has been a fuck up (I am not exaggerating) all throughout primary school I was bullied + didn’t have much friends, that combination also made me very angry which = even less friends, basically my 1-2 friends was my best friend, everyone liked him he was funny, easy to talk to, never angry, very imaginative and […]